So I haven’t started the SuperShred diet just yet. I am looking forward to being able to though. I have been sick and feel like I’ve been on staff at the doctor’s office… everything is OK nothing major going on just everything decided to hit all at once… Lucky me! Anyway… with all the new medications and everything I have had like ZERO appetite. SO I’ve been trying to drink fruit/veggie smoothies and protein shakes… even soup.. It’s like I’ve put myself on the dreaded liquid diet just because I can’t eat! And drinking a TON of water!!! Like at least 3 Liters a day!!! And I don’t even want anything like soda just water… it’s weird. Totally weird… but I’ll take it!
Today, I put on some clean pants.. you know the ones you end up wearing because for some reason all your other black pants have vanished, and you hate them because they are too tight and uncomfortable and well you don’t know why you still even own them… Well today they fit! And not only do they fit but they are a tiny bit loose in the waist. So I’m gonna celebrate this victory of fitting into these pants!! And not complain as much about these dreaded medicines that I hate because now… my hated pants… may be able to be in the real rotation!!
The scale is down another 2.5 – so that’s about 13lbs I’ve lost so far! Excited to keep on going. Ready to finally shed this weight and all it really means to me emotionally!
I’ve been away from blogging for quite a while. It’s time for me to get started again. A lot has happened since the last post (death, divorce, moving, etc.) I let my life overwhelm me and I wasn’t really focusing on my health. And my health suffered. Medications, Medications, Medications!! And if anyone knows me, you know how much I HATE them!! There have been a lot of emotional ups and downs. And with that there has been the rollercoaster of weight as well. With the new year, I have decided to really start focusing on me. I know I am not alone in this commitment to make change. I’m sure millions around the world have made the same decision and in a way it’s comforting to know that I’m not alone in this battle.
Since the beginning of the year, I have been making more of an effort to eat in rather than out. This is huge!! All those unnecessary extra calories in the same meal out that I could have in is crazy!! I also have started only having water during the day and allow myself a can of caffeine-free diet soda with dinner. I’m working on getting rid of soda completely but I’m not a fan of water with dinner!! And strangely with just this small change I’m already down 10 lbs.
Also, I found a new diet lifestyle plan that I plan to begin soon. It’s the SHRED diet by Dr. Ian Smith (but I may start with SuperSHREDDERS). It’s been all over TV and Radio so you may have heard of it is as well. I will do my best to talk about how I am feeling with this and what kind of results I see.
I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel with my emotional downfall and this has allowed me to open my eyes again to focusing on my health and what makes me happy. I really feel like this year is going to be amazing. There is already a lot of positive things happening, like starting to date! Ahhh!!!
I’ve made it through some tough times and I feel stronger about it. We all have our weak moments, but I now know I have the support to help me get back up. This year, I definitely see me being successful in my weight loss goals. And if I can see it, I can achieve it. It’s time. It just is. NO MORE EXCUSES!!!!!
I have hit that wall. The one where you either give up or get over it. There are no excuses to why I have not done what I need to do to get myself healthy and lose this weight. I think I have gotten caught up in the massive ontaking that I feel that I have and sort of just gave up. I have recently sought the help and expertise of a nutritionist. So far in my two meetings with her… I have found that spark of “Hey- I CAN DO THIS!” It’s nice to have encouragement from someone that knows what I’m doing wrong and can tell me how to do it right. I’ve played the whole “I know what I’m doing… I used to be a weight-loss counselor” card too long. Obviously, I don’t know what I’m doing or I wouldn’t be where I am!!
I love the fact that she is all about me not looking at the big picture and rather focuses on the small thing that I can control. She wants me to think about the next 2-3 days, not the next week, next month, etc. Looking more than two or three days down the road is overwhelming!!! Also. not trying to lose 50lbs. but rather 5lbs. And once I lose that 5 then move on to the next. It’s the basic things (things I know) but for whatever reason I just don’t do!! I look at the scale and say HOLY COW!! How will I ever get to where I need to be!? Then my emotional eating kicks in and well I hit that viscious cycle. I think having her help me focus is going to mean the world!!
With my new work schedule- I have been feeling very stressed at not having time for family or friends or even me. I have gone from basically be a stay at home mom to getting about 2 hours in the evening with my kid. Anyone that has kids knows that this hurts. To even think of adding anything into that precious time makes me cringe. So for me I was like I seriously have NO TIME to exercise! I am sure a lot of you are in that same boat. I just look at my schedule, know I’m busy, and can’t figure out how to fit it all in. Well we talked about my schedule… guess what.. I have a church small group on Tuesdays that meets about 1hr and a half after I get off work. I don’t have time to go home- I can use this time to EXERCISE!!! Wow!! Also, I get off work early on Friday… I can use this time as well… AND hello we do have weekends!! Why must exercising in my mind fall during the week? I’ve always assumed weekends=break. That I didn’t have to do anything that I didn’t want to. But its really me time.. and I can exercise then! And I can do fun things like HIKING again or something with my kid but hello.. it can be done! I started the week not thinking I had any time and I had 4 days right off the bat that wouldn’t take away any kid time!!! AWESOME!!!!
I am excited to start this process again. I am ready to do this and do it right. I am not going to “diet”… I am going to eat the way I am supposed to. I have some guidelines and some new recipes and I can’t wait to share!!
So I’m back to say I am recommitting my life to being healthier, happier, and hopefully smaller!! :) Ha!! Maybe you’d like to join me on this adventure?!
So, I know I have been away from my blog for quite some time… and all I can say is that the time away was needed. I was going through some personal struggles and I honestly just lost the words. I would stare at the screen and want to post and could think of nothing. I was going through some stressful things with the job hunt and other personal things and my mind would never think of anything even remotely positive. To say I was in a downward spiral of emotions is a pretty good description!
But things have been picking up… I’ve been hired on full-time with the most amazing company and I feel that all my prayers have been answered and I am working where I should be. God has His plan and I’ve got to TRUST that the bad times are only temporary!! The people that I work with are wonderful… and my boss has such a great heart. I consider myself very lucky to be here!
My weight loss journey is still going but with it being summer and traveling and weddings, etc. I can say I have not always made the best choices. I will say that over the last month I have really decided to focus not on weight-loss itself but rather eating healthier. I have found that this plan actually works great! I am already down 10lbs this month!! (Of course I gained a little before that!) I have decided to cook more, eat out less, and only treat when I really really want it or it’s a special occasion. My meals have been going slightly more vegetarian, though I am by no means one!! I usually have a protein bar or shake for breakfast. A tasty salad at lunch with fresh fruit. Greek yogurt for a afternoon snack… And dinners have been mostly a meat, bean, veggie type deal. I am buying as much organic or local as possible. The summer makes this super easy with all the farmer’s markets around. And the meat I am only buying at Whole Foods. Occasionally, I will by the GreenWise meats from Publix…
I know this is so gross… but I’ve just been thinking about what all happens to meat before we get to eat it and it makes me not want it. I figure if I am going to eat it… I am going to get the best I can. And I honestly think this is the main thing that has helped with weight-loss.
Going organic and esp. shopping at Whole Foods has made the grocery bills go up… but I try to still shop deals and honestly my overall health is worth whatever it costs!! If I feed myself the good stuff I feel good… If I feed myself junk… I feel like crap!!! I think eating healthier has also helped me be positive emotionally. It sounds crazy but I really think everything is connected!
I am still trying to get into an exercise routine… I am even planning on walking in the American Heart Association Heart Walk. It’s a 3 mile walk that supports the American Heart Association. I have added a widget to my sidebar if you’d like to join me on this walk or donate to support the great cause! I will thank you in advance if you decide to do this!! I would love to have more walkers on my team!!!!
So, I am going to do better about posting and keeping up with everything. My emotional roller coaster of a life (so I have felt lately) has finally calmed down. I am so much happier, I feel so much better, and I know I am getting of to a great start getting back!! I’ve missed you!!!
So…. I have some news! I am IN the news!! How crazy is that?! Recently, I was asked by someone that I met on Twitter (@KaraKennedy) if she could write a story about my journey for B-Metro Magazine (a local magazine here in Birmingham) for her Leading Women blog … Obviously, the answer was YES! Well… she wrote it and you can read it HERE … I honestly am so completely amazed at all the support I have received and feel completely honored that I was chosen to be spotlighted as a “Leading Woman”!! I really am still so in shock!! Holy cow!! Now that article has been posted on al.com!! I feel so completely overwhelmed by this attention… it is sooooo crazy!!! I mean I started this blog as a way for me to keep myself accountable and hopefully inspire some people on the way… and in such a short amount of time feel so blessed to have inspired others and be given this attention…
I am just so thankful for all of this. I feel so much different today than I did just a few months ago. I am happier. I am healthier. I am more spiritual. However, I know I still have a long way to go! I know that I have been all over the place with my eating plans… but I just have not found one that works for me… I have been doing Weight Watchers and with the new program giving me so many points… I have been unable to follow it as I should. Most days I don’t get enough points and then other days its like since I haven’t gotten my points all week… well then I’ll just eat whatever I want… THIS IS NOT A GOOD THING!!!! So… I think that there is a better option for me and after some research… I have discovered The Abs Diet for Women. I like what it is all about and I am going to do like it asks and give it 6 weeks. I will post my results and let you know how hard/easy/awesome/horrible it ends up being!! I am very excited about giving this a shot! I am really hoping that this is the plan that I will be able to stick with and get this weight gone!!!
I am also going to be better about posting my workouts! I love that I have so many options that I can choose from… and with the weather getting so beautiful… I hope to start doing more activities outside!! I am hoping to get started hiking again… I miss it!!!
Our small group has started a journal where we are supposed to write down “words of life” about ourselves in it. This is hard for me but I can already see how it will help. Words of life are positive thoughts and phrases… I now know this about myself….
I am God’s child…He loves me… I am beautiful… and I am strong!
Last night I did what I never thought I would… P90X!! I have been hearing about this exercise program forever and have been absolutely terrified!! While I hear how wonderful the results are… I also hear how intense it is! I have heard of people even getting sick during it!! So needless to say, as I contemplated trying this for the first time I was a nervous wreck!! I tweeted about me being scared but wanting to try it and a friend told me that it was definitely high impact and it might be hard to modify for my knee and back. I hadn’t really thought about that so I looked up suggestions on the internet about what I should do. Basically, it said don’t do it but that if you do start with P90X Cardio instead of the P90X Pylometrics or P90X Kenpo. That the P90X Cardio was basically a lower impact version of these, so I tried it! Well HOLY COW!! That was quite a workout!! I had to modify a few things but the instructor on the DVD said that was OK!! I made it trough the whole DVD though had to take a few breaks for water, to catch my breath, and so I didn’t throw up!! It was a little like my TurboKick class that I do but not as fun! The music definitely did not compare!! But I still had a good time and got in a great workout! I AM SO SORE TODAY!! I think it was the yoga poses that got me so sore! I will definitely do the P90X Cardio DVD again. I may even try the other DVDs once I get a little bit stronger and more in shape!! I am definitely not ready to start the whole program. I just like finding new things to add in to my exercise plan!! Got to keep things interesting!!!
I am definitely super proud of myself for giving this a shot! I had to get back on track somehow so why not start with something really hard and out of the box?! Ha!! I am trying to figure out if I want to hit the gym today or take a shot at my Zumba DVD… I really cannot decide at the moment!
I have already gotten in about half of my water intake today and I tried this Green Goodness smoothie (you know the one made with grass?!) this morning for breakfast… not so bad… May add these in every once in a while!!
I am getting my butt back on track!! And I’m loving it!!
“Make the decision, then do something – no matter how small – toward accomplishing what you want.”
I have been away for a long time. I am so sorry for that. I think I have experienced the “Bloggers Block!!” I have been feeling so at a loss as to what to say that I just haven’t said anything. I have not felt like my daily happenings have been very interesting, so I just kept avoiding the laptop. During this time away, I have still managed to lose a few pounds… although, I have not been exercising as much and I have eaten out more than I should. Especially to mexican restaurants…. cheese dip = not good…
I think I’ve been away the most because I feel like I have let you (my readers) down. I know I have let myself down. It’s just been really hard staying on track… I have been keeping myself really busy and this leads to poor choices for me. When I get off track, I really start to beat myself up… I also start to avoid the issue. This helps me none… because the longer I’m off track the harder it is to get back on! But I’m human (a depressed human) and I make mistakes! But with all that said, it’s not fair to you, it’s definitely not fair to me… and I am going to be better!!!
So I am doing this post to hopefully end my Bloggers Block, Exercise Block, Healthy Eating Block, etc… All I can say is I AM SO SORRY!!! I promise to do better!!